Let me take you back to the first few weeks/months after the initial stroke. I don't remember much, but I am aware of feeling very confused, and puzzled as to what had happened, and why it had happened to me. I hadn't done anything so why was I left helpless?
Physio - that felt like a giant waste of time, as I couldn't move my arm, much less grip anything, so how the hell was I to push my fingers through plastacine? How could I pour myself a drink, and why couldn't I go to the kitchen to make a hot drink? "Because your arm is too weak, you could severly burn yourself". I kept asking the same questions about food for the day, or what I was supposed to be doing. (Even now, I have times where I cannot remember a thing, and I'm convinced locations to be, such as shops, are somewhere else).
Exhaspiration was a daily occurance, especially when it came to doing simple things, like tieing laces, or getting a drink. Even being clean was difficult, as I was to "Not be left alone at any point incase I fell in the shower, or drowned in the bath". What the hell? How could I drown in a bath?
More of the same for the majority of the time, I had to learn to walk so to speak, all over again. Even now, my speech isn't perfect, and in rare cases what I say makes no sense, and isn't understood by anybody.
Physio - that felt like a giant waste of time, as I couldn't move my arm, much less grip anything, so how the hell was I to push my fingers through plastacine? How could I pour myself a drink, and why couldn't I go to the kitchen to make a hot drink? "Because your arm is too weak, you could severly burn yourself". I kept asking the same questions about food for the day, or what I was supposed to be doing. (Even now, I have times where I cannot remember a thing, and I'm convinced locations to be, such as shops, are somewhere else).
Exhaspiration was a daily occurance, especially when it came to doing simple things, like tieing laces, or getting a drink. Even being clean was difficult, as I was to "Not be left alone at any point incase I fell in the shower, or drowned in the bath". What the hell? How could I drown in a bath?
More of the same for the majority of the time, I had to learn to walk so to speak, all over again. Even now, my speech isn't perfect, and in rare cases what I say makes no sense, and isn't understood by anybody.
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